Words...words...and more words....

Sebastian seems to have more to say than Mommy these days!

WOW!
Uh-Oh!
NO-NO!
Car
Cat
Ca-ca (when he poops)
Shoe
Sock
All done
Cracker
Juice
Dada
Mama
Yoda (our fat cat)
Elmo


To view this genius at work go to http://www.facebook.com/video/?id=654593674#/video/video.php?v=44413218674

The cake....

Well the B-day went off without a hitch, I know I am late in writing but whatever! The cake turned out pretty awesome I might add and Sebastian loved it!!

Food for thought

If procrastination was a career I would be CEO! It is now December 17th (I actually had to look that up) and I have not bought one Christmas gift & not baked one Christmas cookie, dinner dishes are still in the sink, and there is a very moldy load of laundry still sitting in the washer from two days ago; I did however manage to make a pillow fort with Sebastian today, tell him I love him 200 times and drank my coffee looking out the window. It was a glorious morning with my son...I enjoyed him and he me, let me knot forget what is really important!

Passing

About 6 months ago my family's life changed forever...a day I will never forget. My son was born and my Father-In-Law died the same day. I went into full blown labor at 3am on December 26th when we got a call that Achille had taken a bad fall down a flight of steps. He fractured his C2 vertebrae and as a result of brain swelling was deprived of oxygen for some time. He was pronounced brain dead on December 27th and we turn off life support on December 28th. Two souls passing through the universe one coming and one going...these days were of the most joyous and sorrow filled days of my life. I mourn for Sebastian everyday...he will never know what it is like to have a Grandfather...he will never know how wonderful his Grandfather's were and how much they both meant to all of us (My father passed away in September of 2003).

Sebastian is 6mths old and it has been six months since we lost Achille. I am reminded of this every time Sebastian celebrates a milestone...he is now just starting the beginnings of crawling, he babbles non-stop, he wants to fall asleep in the crib alone (no more rocking---very sad for me), he now realizes when Mommy and Daddy leave the room..as Sebastian grows and develops I can only hope that his Grandfathers are looking down and are proud of the way his family is raising him...they have given us the foundation to work from and we will be forever grateful to them for that.

My 20-10 Birthday!

Yeah...Yeah...guess who's 30...ME(eeeek!). I can't believe that I am 30 years old! I still feel like I am 18 though, so, I guess it's all in how ya feel, right? Well I feel like I have accomplished a lot in my 30 years so far, and I hope to do so much more as the days turn into years and I find myself at 40. Some of the goals I have set for myself in the next ten years....1)God willing, have a few more babies (hopefully a girl in the mix somewhere). 2)Become a Nurse Practitioner (preferably in Plastic Surgery with burn victims). 3)Get our business off the ground, and start to make serious money from it. And last but certainly not least, be the best damn wife and mother I can be!!! I love my life and there is nothing I would change...life is good and I just need to sit back and enjoy!

Love Is Letting Go

This a poem I wrote about a patient I took care of who is suffering a great deal. She has really made an impact on my life and I know her family is suffering terribly with the hardest decision of there life.


She was thirteen, vivid and strong dancing and laughing for so long.
When she was on stage you were so proud.
She was so bright.
You clapped so loud.
Now she is lost in a body that won't let her fight.
We always try to hold on to what is left.
She would not want to be "kept"



We took care the best we knew how,
knowing you love her so
Now it's your turn
Love is letting her go...
it may seem wrong, but you must be strong
she does not want to suffer like this
please send her off with your kiss

As you have here...
I promise you, the angels will watch and care through your tears...
..that is the gift that you can give her now
Please let her go to take her last bow.

She will dance, laugh and be young again... with God, who has said...
"Love is patient, love is kind"
and love is letting go... even when we feel we are left behind.

He's growing up!

My little baby boy is not so little anymore. Bitter sweet I must say, cause as he acquires each new skill I am delighted but also miss the little infant-like stuff that is slowly fading.
"Homecomming"


He rolls all over now...he no longer stays in the same spot I put him...showering is a bit of a challenge these days!

He eats cereal, bananas, peaches, peas, sweet potatoes and carrots from a spoon and prefers to smear it all over his face, by the end of every feeding session he is covered.

He falls asleep on his own for two naps a day...when he falls asleep he is so cute that I just want to wake him up again, that is of course, until he actually wakes up and then I secretly wish he was asleep again...what's wrong with me?

He laughs out loud when you tickle his chunky thighs.

I think he said HELLO one day, but has not said it again.

When in the snuggly he pulls things off the shelves in the store, quite funny the first time he did it...12 shampoo bottles came crashing down and he laughed so hard...real funny...Sebastian!

He likes to be on his belly now, but throws up every time...YUCK!

Were is my little baby...growing up I guess!


"First Bath"


"Many baths later..."

Like Mother Like Son

Philisophical moment of the day.....

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if I was someone else for one day. Would that other life be more fulfilling or would I miss what I had? Is the grass really greener on the other side as the cliche would have us believe?

I'm sure 'the other side' has its divets and brown spots too and sometimes its hard to see how green your grass is when your standing on it. So, when I wonder what it would be like to be someone else I guess in away it helps me to see not just my grass but my whole yard and all the wonderful things in it!