Love Is Letting Go

This a poem I wrote about a patient I took care of who is suffering a great deal. She has really made an impact on my life and I know her family is suffering terribly with the hardest decision of there life.


She was thirteen, vivid and strong dancing and laughing for so long.
When she was on stage you were so proud.
She was so bright.
You clapped so loud.
Now she is lost in a body that won't let her fight.
We always try to hold on to what is left.
She would not want to be "kept"



We took care the best we knew how,
knowing you love her so
Now it's your turn
Love is letting her go...
it may seem wrong, but you must be strong
she does not want to suffer like this
please send her off with your kiss

As you have here...
I promise you, the angels will watch and care through your tears...
..that is the gift that you can give her now
Please let her go to take her last bow.

She will dance, laugh and be young again... with God, who has said...
"Love is patient, love is kind"
and love is letting go... even when we feel we are left behind.

He's growing up!

My little baby boy is not so little anymore. Bitter sweet I must say, cause as he acquires each new skill I am delighted but also miss the little infant-like stuff that is slowly fading.
"Homecomming"


He rolls all over now...he no longer stays in the same spot I put him...showering is a bit of a challenge these days!

He eats cereal, bananas, peaches, peas, sweet potatoes and carrots from a spoon and prefers to smear it all over his face, by the end of every feeding session he is covered.

He falls asleep on his own for two naps a day...when he falls asleep he is so cute that I just want to wake him up again, that is of course, until he actually wakes up and then I secretly wish he was asleep again...what's wrong with me?

He laughs out loud when you tickle his chunky thighs.

I think he said HELLO one day, but has not said it again.

When in the snuggly he pulls things off the shelves in the store, quite funny the first time he did it...12 shampoo bottles came crashing down and he laughed so hard...real funny...Sebastian!

He likes to be on his belly now, but throws up every time...YUCK!

Were is my little baby...growing up I guess!


"First Bath"


"Many baths later..."

Like Mother Like Son

Philisophical moment of the day.....

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if I was someone else for one day. Would that other life be more fulfilling or would I miss what I had? Is the grass really greener on the other side as the cliche would have us believe?

I'm sure 'the other side' has its divets and brown spots too and sometimes its hard to see how green your grass is when your standing on it. So, when I wonder what it would be like to be someone else I guess in away it helps me to see not just my grass but my whole yard and all the wonderful things in it!

Mother's Day Memoirs

-- Baby woke up at 7:00 am and I just rolled over and went back to sleep (my husband got up with him) till 10:00 LOVELY!

-- Opened my gift; perfume and a mug that said, "Mom on the inside, Babe on the outside" thanks Leo! You always make me feel sexy!

-- Went out to dinner and was, 'that mom with a screaming baby in a restaurant', there's always a first time for everything, I will never judge again!

-- got home and had a flat tire...funny lots of things are flat now including my 'wobbly bits' after pregnancy, hence why I loved the mug so much!

Happy Bleated Mother's Day to all!

Honored to care

This is kinda corny but I felt moved to write a poem today...




Care for your broken bones
I take care when others throw stones

Careful not to be rough
and always try to protect when times are tough

I hope that you remember the gentle touch, and the time it took and such

The nurse cares while my patients bear
...the pain you have today will fade, I'm sorry but; the memories remain

my hope for you...the innocence you have lost will be repaid with the strength you gain

Why do these things happen?
I cannot answer you that, but I offer this...all things we can bear when others who care are there.

Thank You for the honor... TO CARE!